Better hold on to yourself...

I hate being artisitic... Sometimes anyway...

think the trouble is you see life in a slightly skewed way. And you question reality and things a lot more. One day something may not have any significance but the next is all important. This can happen from second to second too. Masturbation for example can be the biggest high, yet on occasion after ejaculation can leave you feeling empty and deflated. Although this isn't the case all the time.

I have found though, that by masturbating for hours on end and gettig my self on the verge of ejaculation then easing off I prolong the pleasure and don't get the downer of post-ejac blues.
The bad thing about this is that you can end up in a perpetual state of hornyness which can then cloud your judgement, but be terribly fun!